Life

The city lights were blinding. Life was as fast paced as ever in the zone that never sleeps. Can't say I missed this city with its deafening noise and its smokey streets. Facebook pictures would come out pretty well and they would be edited and posted in a second to look perfect -but the reality was so very different. I was tired . So tired. The long days and the longer nights were taking their toll. I was missing my family, my bed at home and my friends. I longed for a night curled on the sofa with no distraction but a book tucked into my knees and a mug of hot chocolate steaming on a near by table. A hot beverage I didn't have to make myself. Aaaah..how wonderful that would be. I just wanted to pack it all in, the city job; the six figure salary , the posh apartment- it had all, long lost its charm. I put on my pink headphones. My favourite song on full volume strumming through my ears and it perked up my spirits a little. Sweats on. I ran and ran. I ran through the ...

She tapped wildly at the keys. She had so much to say. It flowed freely like her soul had been unleashed. Boundaries were broken and gates thrust open. Everything took a new shape and a crystal clear form. It was as though she could smell the freshly cut grass again. She hadn't smelled if for years. Everything felt new, cleaner and crisper. Something had changed. The doubt that had kept her words caged, locked and hidden felt as though it had been lifted. Encouragement came from her one constant source. They believed in her when no one else did and she rode high on this wave of utter euphoria. A burst of light made her jump and for a second her fingers froze at the keyboard. Running to the window she saw the night sky light up into a million colours. It was as though the whole world was celebrating her new found freedom. She had broken the chains. There was no stopping her now. She stood enthralled by the sight before her as bursts of fire lit up the sky. 

To watch you is to love you. My little one you are growing up too fast. Your fascination of everything new. Every sound , every movement and everything in your view. Your speed, your glee , your curiosity! How pleasurable and how proud a parent I am -to see you learn, play and see. The shine in your eyes, that moment of achievement. You are so full of surprises, emotions and curiosity. Those little fingers and that questioning. Every new song is a moment of utter concentration. A little dance move here and a little giggle there. You amaze me. You make my life new again my little curious one. I silently pray that your inquisitiveness grows and that with each day your learning achieves new heights. I pray for your safety and where your investigations may lead you-and then I feel you need to be careful. I want you to learn but also be safe-a mothers instinct , worry and happiness all rolled into one. I want you to push the limits and go where I never dared but slowly, take your t...

The sky touched the field as though it longed to be one with it. I hadn't come across such a view before and it was breath taking. I longed for your arms around me and to hear your voice again, I knew I was being naive. You were nothing but a distant memory now and the past can never become the present. Life has taken me on such a different path and you on such a different one. The hands of time only know why, where and when. As I write this I know you are somewhere crouched over a dusty desk tapping away at your laptops keys hoping your dead end job will get you noticed. Perhaps even a promotion would come your way? Its been five years and it still hasn't. Perhaps the time to re-evaluate your life is now? I wanted you so badly it hurt but you were never right for me. I was the career focused overly obsessed workaholic who did a 360 and never wanted to step in an office again. You never seemed ambitious but you were secretly, deep inside. No one was going to look inside ...