Life

Who is right and who is wrong Endless questions from both sides The interest lessening -efforts dwindling and time running fast How much longer is this going to last.. These meetings are ongoing ..from them-nothing to show Such a long process with no conclusion in sight.. The excitement of something to come dwindling with the rapidly disseapearing light.. How much longer -this testing of patience How much longer am I to be taught these lessons A candle burning on both sides -a strange internal battle With each day a hesitation is beginning to grow Somewhere inside the cracks are starting to show Age and wisdom that were once best friends ..now wage an ugly war

I dont quite remember when it started.. through a trecherous desert or a deep thick forest.. my imagination fully giving me direction.. The mind has grown leaps and bounds --its not contained but only found Distant memories come to haunt and in their wake I long to walk Nowhere is here and where is nowhere to be found A deep instilled belief of whats right and wrong Finding my way through the grey Making sure I felt with my hands and tasted with my lips this very life and its tantalising gifts Not judging -no more of that emotion wasting stuff No this time the journey has only begun Come join me -lets have some fun A freedom that was missing is heading my way the distant future is my every new day This positivity that has engulfed my senses --I want to hold on to it..so very tight...loosening my fingers just a little you know.,...to let it breathe.. Unclasp my hand? I couldn't ..no... I dont want to to lose this feeling by letting it go..

The appreciation of what I have.. over what I don't Wanting more and wanting less..letting my wants for a moment.. rest A wandering mind -knowing not whats best.. Even after the candles fully burnt..the story is only half told A tale of tomorrow and of what is to come..so many words..still not enough for the story to fully unfold. A narrow escape ..a thunderous night..so much to imagine in just one night Dream of stories that start from a thought continue and create a world never seen before follow me on this journey of dragons, witches and magical spells lets start from the beginning and spin us a web A web of intrigue --of so much that could happen These words ...written...writing...forming..pronouncing each beautiful word..this amazing gift of letters and words..language.... This may just be the best of me -the best of what I have shared with you yet..listen, read and hear what I say..for I only have today..what I write today I wont repeat tomorrow but if you read on...then you ...

The weather was prefect..the clouds overhead were drenched by the sun . A crisp wind blew through her hair and enveloped her in a warm glow of calm. What more could she ask for. A lazy summer afternoon with a book by her side. Far off church bells chimed indicating the time but today on this day -time had little relevance. The whole day was hers to dream away. To dream of a sea somewhere in a far off land with exotic sand covered beaches, fresh fish dinners with coconut water ... Hmm the dream of things to come. Water droplets on a window gathering in a pool at the bottom of the window sill. A drifting thought of meeting someone with the same thoughts. The same interests and the same definition of decency. Common values matching and things falling into place...simply ..naturally..effortlessly..breathing deeply ...fresh air...returning to the sunny day. Book in hand..she turned another page and the dream began again...

If I write my mind and free my soul -will my life be easier? If I follow the path and question less-will my life be easier? If I spoon feed my next generation-will accepting their heritage be easier? If I say what you want to hear -will my life be easier? If I question nothing -will my life be easier? If I pray more and complain less -will my life be easier? If I become wiser with reading and experience-will my life be easier? Am I making an easy life complicated or a complicated life in fact easier? If I can't be anything but me and am true to myself -why is life not easier? The truth is -why make a challenge easier -once the excitment is lost -what is left but a hollow shell?I cannot change myself and think less. These are and will always be the words freed from the depths of an overly active mind.

How does one get to the point of deciding the right direction? When two people meet, are introduced or whatever the wonderful situation is that leads to them finally meeting -why is it so difficult to reach a mutual decision of where this meeting will go next? Okay we all have our different commitments ..but a wise person once said to me -" If he likes you enough -you'll know and he won't be hiding it" And for the most part I would agree with this. So here is the dilema. Why does he always say "How can a girl like you be single".." I can't see you ever having had a lack of interest" .Thank you kind sir but while this is all wonderfully generous of you and charming to hear -it does nothing for me ... What is an interest, a liking, an admiration and in turn a commitment if it isn't long lasting? Don't tell me you like me and then shrink away as soon as the going gets tough.None of us really have a problem attracting people. Attraction is...