Life

As I sit here in the middle of the night resisting sleep and taking in a Democratic debate on CNN, politics consumes the mind. Politics comes into in all facets of our lives, be it in amongst our friends, family &or work. I am continously fascinated by the diplomacy most of us practice in our work places.We weigh and assess every word that leaves our mouths.Transparency into who each of us really is-is diminishing. While one person is working hard to assert themselves, another is trying to dissapear into the background only to reappear when they will be applauded for their achievements at a later date. The world is a stage and each one of us a pawn in a larger then life chess game.

Here it is again. He meets she and she meets he. Nothing there but a tremendous strain on time and effort from both sides. Is it really worth it or should I stop . Stopping is never an option. I can see positives in you so sit up & learn to always put yourself in the others shoes. What I thought was right -may just be and what you thought might also be -in our parallel universes-heh -fantastic -i love it -cause it annoys me so much -and it annoys me because I let it -fantastic because it makes life interesting. This continuous desire to find more then there was previously and less then was expected is taking its toll.

The last few weeks have been so hectic. I 've been in interview hell. No matter how many interviews you take and the count is endless that feeling in the pit of your stomach forms and lingers til the very end. I always thought by the time I was in my mid twenties (admitting that is not easy but I choose to be brave !) I would have my nerves pretty much under lock and key and for the most part they are but just sometimes I unfortuanely cannot go on being super human continously and have to realise that making mistakes is part of the package of being moi~. These past few weeks have been so full of "newness" that I have had to take a step back to catch my breath. I being me, love new things and the idea of change !I love newness so much that I think am becoming addicted to it. Somebody stop me! Ofcourse no one can really stop this addiction and while it steadily grows and is in danger of consuming me head first I choose to let it. I think it will push me to new heights and t...