The "newness" of it all

The last few weeks have been so hectic. I 've been in interview hell. No matter how many interviews you take and the count is endless that feeling in the pit of your stomach forms and lingers til the very end. I always thought by the time I was in my mid twenties (admitting that is not easy but I choose to be brave !) I would have my nerves pretty much under lock and key and for the most part they are but just sometimes I unfortuanely cannot go on being super human continously and have to realise that making mistakes is part of the package of being moi~.

These past few weeks have been so full of "newness" that I have had to take a step back to catch my breath. I being me, love new things and the idea of change !I love newness so much that I think am becoming addicted to it. Somebody stop me!

Ofcourse no one can really stop this addiction and while it steadily grows and is in danger of consuming me head first I choose to let it. I think it will push me to new heights and to places I have never seen before. I am a woman of many desires and feel if life has so much to offer why ever settle on anything less but the best. Ofcourse this may make me overly picky and thus I choose to consciously tone down now and again the desire to correct and assume I am always right. I accept all my flaws whole heartedly so why not accept others and know that they too must have their obsessions and their addictions. While newness may not be on of their addications it is mine and while mine rubs of on them over time spent with me -and if by some chance slowing down and being calm is one of theirs -it may just rub off on me and make me a very different person. Yes this is me being open to change and loving the prospect of being someone in the future who is a very different and very new version of me!
Enough said -endless banter about all that makes sense to me and may not hit home for you is but to be expected;)

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Neel said…
Interviews....they give you an edge of an abyss feeling.....it just fails to dissipate....probabaly will never will...you are absolutely right....when life has got such an amazing bouquet of opportunities...why to settle for the anything but the best...even i have that point of view....so it is very exciting to look forward to new opportunities....and knowing and exploring oneself even more...there is a book that i am currently reading,"OUR ICEBERG IS MELTING",by John Kotter,an excellent read about change and succeeding under any conditions....
as usual a brillant paragraph my frnd...
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